Mellow to the max!

Today was a rather mellow day. 

-- 11:11 - Make a wish! 

Okay, back on topic.

Woke up, ate a hot pocket so I wouldn't bother my mom. Did some homework. Chatted on AIM with Omar and Hoang. Showered, chatted some more. Hoang played his guitar via talk on AIM. Hecka good. I wish I could plaaaaaaaay. Picked up Alyssa from school. Home. More AIM. Bothered Annie. Downloaded some music. Er ... Ate dinner. I don't remember what else happened ... AIM some more. American Idol! Danny Gokey sang What Hurts The Most! =D Looooooooove. ++ Kris and Scott were really good, too. (: 

Uh, AIM some more. Downloaded antivirus stuff on the laptop and killed those viruses! :D

Not much else happened. It was a really nice, really mellow day. (: 

<3

I'm glad I was able to cheer you up and I'm glad that you know how much I, and all your friends, really care about you and love you. You're a great person, and I really mean it. You're my blazer. (: 

And I love you; I really, truly do. 

Talking to you last night / really early this morning made me feel so loved and so needed. I'm glad you can turn to me and open up. I'm glad that you trust me. 

I really care about you, Cyrus. (:

And I love you. <3

I'm sorry.

Cyrus, I'm sorry. I'm sorry you can't vent to me. I'm sorry I can't cheer you up. I'm a horrible person. I wish I could give you a hug and have you forget your grief and anger for just a second. I wish you would tell me what's going on. At least allow me to walk with you and comfort you. It hurts so much to see you so sad. It's as if I can feel your pain, even if I don't know what's going on. I wish you'd feel better. I wish I could find some way to make you happy again. It hurts to see you so down. Well, even if you don't want me to get involved, I hope you feel better. I really, honestly do. It hurts so much to see you sad. I love you, Cyrus. I really do. Feel better, please? (:

My beautiful poem. :D

it's a new, sweet spring!!!
I wish to celebrate
a time for giving
planting seeds
watering flowers
gardening
for peace & love
gifts
bugs
seeds
water
sweet flowers
gardening in the moment
get together with family & friends
celebrate the happy things in life
the ones you love gather together
we water flowers
decorate
party
- - -
my favorite things

If I ever feel stressed ...

Wow. Signed on facebook and saw that Dieu posted something on dealing with stress. A lot of it is pretty interesting:

Keep a journal. Jotting down your stressful thoughts can help you look at them more logically, potentially easing anxiety, mentally and physically. A study in the Journal of Health Psychology finds that a mere month of expressive writing can help reduce hypertension. Keep a pretty notebook handy at all times.

Anticipate something awesome. Or something tiny that makes you smile. The point is to look forward to something each day, whether it’s enjoying your morning java or counting down to an exotic vacation. Practicing this will keep your mind from focusing on what could go wrong that day.

Exhibit your exhilarating moments. Tape up pictures of three amazing days you’ve experienced, such as dancing at your wedding or crossing the finish line of a half-marathon. Honing in on the images for at least 10 seconds can lower muscle tension and stabilize your heartbeat.

Give someone props. Go on, pay a compliment to someone deserving. Research has shown that the more warm personal connections you make, the better your body is at jettisoning the effects of stress.

- http://health.yahoo.com/experts/healthieryou/9061/stress-is-sabotaging-your-diet-success/

Hmm. Keeping a journal. I'm doing so by blogging right now, aren't I? Anticipate something awesome or something tiny that makes me smile. Sounds like a great idea. Exhibit your exhilarating moments. Ahaha, I looked through my old photos today. Uncovered some pretty crazy stuff. Gold rush picture from 4th grade?! Smart Club Foto Booth photo?! Aha, crazy stuff. Give someone props? Can do, will do.
Whoot! Today was a really mellow, calm day. (:
Should I be more productive? Nah.
All I wanna do is enjoy today. (:

Espanol?

Yo estoy enferma y yo tengo mucha tarea. x-x; 

No me gustaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. 

Pero, no estoy cansada. (: 

No me gusta hablar en Espanol.

Es muy dificil. 

Pero la tarea de matematicas es mas dificil y muy aburrida. 

Tengo mucha tarea de historia. =/ 

No me gusta los domingos. 

El domingo es la dia de tarea. D: 

Por que hablo Espanol? 

No comprendo tampoco. 

Tengo que estudiar y [do] la tarea de ingles, matematicas, y historia.

Hasta luego!

Side note: Wow, my Spanish sucks. HAHA, Idk how to say "do" in Spanish. [x

Memories. :]

Hm, hanging out with Diana, Ivy, Hoang, Cyrus, and Danny today reminded me of my birthday "party" and that evening w/ Steven and John. I love how some of the greatest times I've had come unplanned and how although planned things go differently than expected, they're still pretty freakin' awesome. Take today for example. Didn't expect Hoang and Danny to be there, but they were there. Didn't expect to spend more time talking to Ivy and Hoang than playing tennis, but I did. I really like hanging out with people and being able to just talk to them. It's really nice, especially with no awkwardness. Plus there was a really nice breeze. Man, I miss the random things that I've been through. The times that I can look back at and laugh about just how random and awesome they were. Basketball - Coke incident at An's birthday party. Random Preacher Guy at me and Emily's birthday party. Learning that Emily and I are related. That evening with Steven and John. My birthday "celebration". Hanging out after finals. The district band festival [Ily (:]. Good times. I love looking back and remembering those moments, 'cause they truly make my life worthwhile. It's these moments that make my life mean something. It's these moments that I'll remember for a long, long time, if not forever. (:

(:

I understood most of the questions on the math FRQ's!

Just remember; HA when infinite limit = 0. And use your freakin' abs. values D: D: 

Q-Cup's cook doesn't show up 'til 12. D: BK FTW! (: 

34/70? Lawl. Less than half. ;___; But still better than a lot of people! Freakin' Hoang and Cyrus owned everyone. x-x; 

I was such a nice noble lord. (: 

My peasants were awesome and uber hardworking, too. Haha. (=

Kill Payam! I express my constitutional right to accept that suggestion! Laaaawl. 

Reign of Terror! xDD

"I wouldn't hang you, Angela. (:"

"But you'd slice my head off with a guillotine?! D:"

"Yeah ..."

"T_T ..."

"But it's a quick and painless death!"

Aha, Omar's awesome. :D

Tennis w/ Ivy, Diana, Hoang, Cyrus, and Danny. Stole Danny's bike and rode around school. Nice convos w/ Ivy and Hoang about lots of random things. Walked Diana to the fence. BK with Hoang, Cyrus, and Danny! BK Crowns! (: 

"Get the 16 oz drink and just keep refilling!" lol. Totally frugal people. (: 

Yeaaaaaaaaap. Good day. (=

I like hanging out with people, sitting at the tennis courts with a nice breeze passing through. Watching the butterflies fly around. Laughing and talking about good times and the future. Listening to Hoang play his guitar. Yeah. Fun, fun, fun. =D

Let's do it some other day, yeah? :] 

Laaaawl.

LAWL. 

I was doing Chinese homework when Justin randomly IMed me ... 

And the conversation that followed was pretty dang random ... LOL. 

InexplicableXin (4:57:07 PM): HEY ANGELA, ITS YOUR OTHER-OTHER, semi cousin

InexplicableXin (4:57:09 PM): remember me?

Sapph5ireZero (4:57:15 PM): lol, yes

Sapph5ireZero (4:57:22 PM): Justin?

InexplicableXin (4:57:30 PM): yes lol

InexplicableXin (4:57:52 PM): Aww, as your older cousin

InexplicableXin (4:58:01 PM): congratulations with finally asking that guy friend of yours out!

InexplicableXin (4:58:04 PM): (or other way around)

InexplicableXin (4:58:17 PM): i just happened to glance at your profile

InexplicableXin (4:58:25 PM): and saw the huge, obnoxious, ubiquitous heart

Sapph5ireZero (4:58:28 PM): LOL

InexplicableXin (4:58:40 PM): but yes, congratulations!

InexplicableXin (4:58:46 PM): heard hes phillipino

InexplicableXin (4:58:50 PM): give him dried mangos, and life will be good

Sapph5ireZero (4:58:56 PM): LOL, wow...

Sapph5ireZero (4:59:04 PM): How much does Emily tell you ... ?

InexplicableXin (4:59:11 PM): random tidbits

Sapph5ireZero (4:59:17 PM): lol

InexplicableXin (4:59:36 PM): thats all, lol, wanted to congratulate you

InexplicableXin (4:59:41 PM): for finally not wimping out

InexplicableXin (4:59:45 PM): because i remember you were like

InexplicableXin (4:59:47 PM): OMG OMG WHAT DO I DO

InexplicableXin (4:59:49 PM): a couple of motnhs ago

InexplicableXin (4:59:54 PM): when i was usin my sisters comp

Sapph5ireZero (5:00:00 PM): WAIT WHAT?!

Sapph5ireZero (5:00:08 PM): You read my convos w/ Emily?!

InexplicableXin (5:00:10 PM): no

InexplicableXin (5:00:13 PM): i went on

InexplicableXin (5:00:18 PM): typed random bs on your window box

InexplicableXin (5:00:23 PM): and manage to glance at osme things

InexplicableXin (5:00:28 PM): i toalked to you a bit through her im box o.0

Sapph5ireZero (5:00:33 PM): LOL, wow ..

Sapph5ireZero (5:00:37 PM): That's kinda awkward ...

Sapph5ireZero (5:00:44 PM): I think you read a lot of stuff that you didn't need to know lol

InexplicableXin (5:01:04 PM): oh well, oops LOL

InexplicableXin (5:01:07 PM): but yea, congrats!

Sapph5ireZero (5:01:11 PM): lol, thanks

<3

Sorry for making you feel bad today. I don't know why, but when you suggested ignoring me, it kinda hurt, even though I knew you wouldn't. It just sorta triggered something inside of me that made me really irritated. Really, it's not your fault. 

I hope you know that you're the best guy in my life. You're my best friend, my boyfriend, the one I love. I hope you know how much you mean to me and how special you are. I love you. I really do. And I hope you always keep that in mind. 

I don't care if you're being perverted and shouting out random things in class. It's part of your irresistable charm. (; Aha, really, you've made such a huge impact on my life, and I hope I'll love you forever and ever. (: 

Thanks for everything you've done. For all your hugs. For walking me to Spanish and English and out to the drop-off. For hanging out with me. For going to Uhler's tutorials with me. For making me smile and laugh. For making me all giggly. For your random but oh so cute kisses on the cheek. 

I'm falling for you, and I can feel it. I love you. Never stop being you. (: 

I love you, too. <3

Looooooooove (: 

Yeah, this made my day / night yesterday. (=

ro (10:45:37 PM):	Go work on your MI
ro (10:45:38 PM):	x-x;
us (10:46:05 PM):	sure
us (10:46:10 PM):	stop talking to me
ro (10:46:16 PM):	Fine, I see how it is.
ro (10:46:19 PM):	I'm not wanted anymore
ro (10:46:20 PM):	T_T
ro (10:46:23 PM):	- goes to emo corner -
us (10:46:40 PM):	no come back!!!!!!!!
us (10:46:52 PM):	I LOVE YOU ANGELA LAM!!!!!!!!

Go Go Go! (:

Notes to Self: 

March 26th: Swimming - Gunderson @ AH

April 2nd: Tennis - Willow Glen @ AH

April 3rd: Swimming - AH @ OG

April 8th: Swimming - Lincoln @ AH

April 9th: Tennis - Live Oak @ AH

April 21st: Badminton - SC @ AH

April 22nd: Swimming - James Lick @ AH

May 7th: Badminton - OG @ AH

Laaawl.

"Angela, are you and Cyrus dating?"

"Yeah."

"Wow. The nature of relationships really does defy logic..." 

"Why are you guys so mean to him?!" 

"He's Cyrus. He randomly bursts out talking about the most random things. Man, on the weirdness scale ..."

"Wait! You're calling me normal?!"

"NO." 

Laaaaaaaaaaaawl. 

Yeah. Today was a pretty good day. + the boys' tennis game was very entertaining.

Man, Carrothead (I MEAN KEVIN) hits some pretty amazing shots. I WISH I HAD HIS TECHNIQUE. 

Attempted to play a bit of tennis w/ Diana and Hoang. Failed ... miserably. 

Ah wells. [x 

Love.

Omarsweird (9:13:36 PM): love

Omarsweird (9:13:38 PM): is

Omarsweird (9:13:53 PM): when u would give ne thing just to see that person happy

Omarsweird (9:14:03 PM): every time dont seee him

Omarsweird (9:14:08 PM): u feel sorrow

Omarsweird (9:14:13 PM): adn when u do see him

Omarsweird (9:14:19 PM): ur heart is a rest

Omarsweird (9:14:24 PM): yet

Omarsweird (9:14:44 PM): every thump ur heart makes
is meant for him

Omarsweird (9:14:59 PM): love is when

Omarsweird (9:15:02 PM): u see him

Omarsweird (9:15:06 PM): in ur dreams

Omarsweird (9:15:20 PM): but wish u saw him in reality

Omarsweird (9:15:38 PM): when u miss him every sec hes away from u

Omarsweird (9:15:45 PM): when

Omarsweird (9:15:58 PM): nothing in the world means more to u than him

And now, I can finally say that I really, truly love him.

I love you. <3

Desperate Housewives was OMG HOLY CRUD SCARY. O___O
Did Edie die?! Waaaaaaaaaaah. Heeeeeeeeeecka scary. D: D: D: D: D:

On the other hand, today was fun. (:
Julie and Brian and Vincent came over. Guitar Hero! :D
Laaaaaaaaaawl, graphology and palm reading. Julie fails at it. xDD
Nancy Drew is a pretty good movie. Kinda scary at times but pretty predictable. The guy that plays Ned is actually pretty cute. (; But he's probably too old for me and I don't feel anything for him. I really like someone else. (=
Guess who that is. Aha, (:
March 12th, 2009. I will never forget that day. And I think I can finally say that I love him.
I love you, Blazer. I love you. <3

So true.

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
-- Sam Keen

The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or heard, but must be felt with the heart.
-- Helen Keller

Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.
-- Oliver Wendell Holmes

If I know what love is, it is because of you.
-- Herman Hesse

The only things in life you regret are the risks that you didn't take.
-- Anonymous

True love doesn't have a happy ending:
True love doesn't have an ending.
-- Anonymous

My love for you is a journey;
Starting at forever,
And ending at never.
-- Anonymous

Love Love Love <3

Sometimes I wonder if we're farther apart now that we're together. I really do like you an awful lot, but it seems as if, now that we're together, I see you less and less. Or maybe, it's just that now, every second I'm away from you feels like forever. I wish I could spend more time with you. I love the feeling of being able to walk with you and talk to you about so many random things. I'm still waiting on that life story, y'know. (:
I really think I'm starting to fall for you more and more. Is it love? I don't quite know yet. But whatever it is, it truly is ineffable.
- inserts a really, really, really long hug here -
One day, let's spend the afternoon together with no purpose whatsoever. Just to hang out and be able to talk to one another about whatever pleases us. Let's walk wherever our feet take us. Just you and me. But then, with your busy schedule, I don't know if it will ever happen. Before the pops concert, let's wander around aimlessly, yeah? Just you and me, hanging out for the whole afternoon. Sounds like a dream come true. (=
I write you oh so many letters on this blogspot, but I don't know if you'll ever receive them. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm really just writing to myself.
Aha, I really like you. And I really love spending time with you, talking about the most random things in the world. You've made such a huge impact on my life, and I'm so glad you did. I'm so glad you're mine. Sure, you're only my first boyfriend, but I know that what I feel for you is so strong. And I want this relationship to last. Forever and always isn't a hyperbole. I want to be yours forever and ever. Will it happen? Who knows? Only time will tell. (=
Don't forget me when you go off to the east coast for college, k? I'll still be here in good ol' California, watching the sunsets by myself, remembering the days and times we spent together. I wish we could hang out more. I really really really really like you. x infinity. (:
- hugs for a long, long, long, long time -
I want to love you until I can love no more. I want to love you as long as life exists. I want to love you as long as I possibly can.
I really want to love you forever and ever. <3

Yuuuuuuuuup.

Math AP Practice!
Talked to Ivy and I actually understood most of it. Felt pretty darn smart. I remembered MVT too! (:
Hung out with him for a little while afterward and then went home.
Ate KFC, Don and Daniel came over, Guitar Hero! For a loooooooooooong time.
Did some WHAP homework, ate fried rice + leftover KFC, and then MORE Guitar Hero.
I fail at drums. And guitar on hard. D:
Ah wells.
Pretty fun. (:
Watching Don play drums on career mode is crazy. He's too good. x-x;
Mmkay, that's about it. Later.
OH! And I am so glad I didn't have Chinese school this week, lol.

Today was fuuuuuuuuuuun! (=

Hmm. Hung out with freshmen during PE. Just walking and talking, but it was fun. :D
WHAP was eh. Bio was pretty interesting, as always. Spanish, didn't do anything, but it was fun. Math, 34/36. Missing one word cost me two points. Pizza at lunch! Whoot! Thanks, Kylie and thanks, Sr. De la Rosa. (=
Baaaaaaaaaaaaand! I totally mastered that recorder part! Flute sectionals! "Hold up your flutes so it looks like we're playing!" Lawl.
English! Finished The Kite Runner and played spider solitaire. Fun Fun Fun. (=
HAHA, band room after school. Angie broke JHo's recorder, and she was so sad! "Jonathan, Angie broke your ... heart." lol. He was like; wtfudge? AND THEN SANDRA, MARCEL, AND URBANO WERE TRYING TO TEACH HIM HOW TO DANCE! LOL. They kinda failed. Jonathan was like; CAN I CONDUCT TO DANCE? xDD
Yuuuuuuuuuuuuuup.
After school; Subway. Safeway. Home. Guitar herooooooo! Career mode instead. Played 3(?) gigs.
DAVIS SPAGHETTI DINNER! Yummy, yummy pasta, garlic bread, and caesar salad! Hung out with Martin. Aha, it's been a while. OG Jazz A played, as well as solo and ensemble groups, and Davis Jazz Band. Fun Fun Fun. And of course, the last song they played is the first jazz song we all learned: Starting Point. Loooooooooooove. So many memories in that cafeteria. (:
Yeeeeeeeep. Good day. If only I could've talked to him before he had to leave for his swim meet. =/

Dear Cyrus,

Assuming we got together around this time, it's been a week since we've been an official couple, and honestly, I am so happy that I have you. When you were feeling sad earlier today, I felt like my heart cracked. I felt like crying. It hurt so much to see you in pain, even if it was emotional pain. My feelings for you are getting stronger each day. I love and cherish every moment I spend with you. Whenever I see you, I immediately light up and feel happier. "And I know it sounds so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is a new best day of my life." It's so true. Every moment I spend with you is the best. I know I don't show it as often as I should, but I really do like you way more than I can admit. My feelings for you are simply ineffable. (:
When you told me that you were thinking about breaking up, I felt like crying. The tears rose up and I was speechless. I couldn't say what I really wanted/needed to say. Cyrus, you've been a great boyfriend. Don't EVER doubt that. I love everything you do for me: walking me to Spanish (and risking being late to Johnson's), hanging out wiht me at brunch, lunch, and after school, and talking to me on AIM whenever possible. You make me smile, compliment me, encourage me, inspire me, and just always make my day. You cheer me up without even trying. I absolutely love spending time with you, even if we're just silently walking. Cyrus, you truly are an amazing person, and I am so glad that I have you. I appreciate every little thing you've done for me. I can honestly say that you are the most important guy (excluding my dad) in my life. I have truly never met anyone as great as you. Ireally think I'm starting to fall in love with you, and I can't wait for it to happen. I know you'll be there to catch me when I completely fall for you. Haha, by the way, did I mention how much you mean to me? (: You mean the world to me. You mean the galaxy to me. The universe. All known space! Aha, I really, really like you. You are the most awesome guy I have met, and I am so glad that I have you. Really, all I need is you. <3

Love,
A. Lam.

P.S. I really like you. (=

I hate to see you sad.

My heart cracked when I saw him so sad today. Gawd, it just really hurt. I have never hurt so much when I've seen someone sad.
I was so sad because I feel like I'm a horrible boyfriend. I never talk to you outside of school. I mean, I'm that random kid that screams BALLS in class. You deserve a lot better. But I know I can't break up with you. I love you way too much for that.
Shoot, I felt like crying. >.> ;
I wish I could've reassured him and told him how awesome he was.
I'll do it tomorrow, I swear.
Other than that, today was pretty awesome. (:
Code Red drill was pretty fun. Watched a movie on Kylie's iPod! + ate popcorn!
Pizza party tomorrow! Whooot! (=

Not much to saaaaaay.

Mm, today was alright. (:
Got to spend time with him. Aha. Fun, fun, fun.
I ACTUALLY PLAYED THE RECORDER PART IN BAND! LAWL! xD
Hmm. I like hanging out with IB music and listening to that opera, even though we get lost when trying to figure out where we are in the opera. x]
Today was a pretty dang good day. :D

:]

I'm glad I got a chance to spend more time with him today. He went with me to math tutorial, too. I feel so special. (:

+ There is no way that that person can like me. Oh dear, please no. It would ruin everything I have going for me. Please, let it all be lies. Let him just be bugging me 'cause he wants to annoy me. 

Nice convos w/ Annie and Thomas today. They're awesome people. I ought to talk to them more often. :] 

IB Music tomorrow, WHAP AP practice + tennis game on Thursday, Davis Spaghetti Dinner on Friday. (: 

Aaaaaaaaaaaand, I'm actually going to math AP practice on Saturday! Amazing, isn't it? For the whole time, too. Aha, I'll sit next to him. (= 

I'm falling for him more and more, and for once, I'm not scared about it. I'm just waiting for myself to fall in love. <3

My feelings for you are ineffable.

Why do I fear that I'm gonna lose you? You mean so much to me. How I feel about you is simply ineffable. (Lawl, Vocab 28 word.) But really. I am so scared of losing you. I know you love me, but I still have my doubts. I don't want to think that this will be forever and ever. At least, not yet. I'm scared it won't be. I'm scared that you'll forget me when you go to college, that we'll never see each other again after that. I really do care about you, and quite a lot.  I feel so bad, though. I feel so clingy. I feel like I need you there all the time. And when you leave, even for just five minutes, I miss you oh so much. I feel so dependent on you. Sigh. This isn't what a relationship should be like. Not at all. I shouldn't need you this much, yet I do. What's wrong with me? >.> ; 

Thoughts.

It almost feels as if, now that we're together, you're spending less and less time with me. And well, it hurts. But I know you probably don't mean to. I just miss being able to talk to you all the time. We used to spend more time together, and it was a lot of fun. I know, I'm such a selfish person, but when I really need you, you're with your friends, and I really have no idea what to do. Time after time, I feel like giving you a big hug and telling you how important you are to me, but I can never find you anymore. You're always with your friends. It's as if, when we're supposed to be closer together, we're actually farther and farther apart. I miss you. Please come back? I need to be reassured that you'll still always be there. And please, don't forget. You are my only one and all I need is you. 

HAHAHAHA. LAWL.

LAWL LAWL LAWL LAWL.

TOFUU x3 (9:05:56 PM): like i looked up

TOFUU x3 (9:05:59 PM): sy nonyms

TOFUU x3 (9:06:01 PM): and they're

TOFUU x3 (9:06:03 PM): ridiculous

TOFUU x3 (9:06:03 PM): LOl

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:06 PM): intercourse.

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:06 PM): LOL

TOFUU x3 (9:06:14 PM): NO

TOFUU x3 (9:06:18 PM): for horny

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:22 PM): OH

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:24 PM): promiscuous?

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:25 PM): LOL

TOFUU x3 (9:06:41 PM): "hard up, hot to trot, oversexed''

TOFUU x3 (9:06:44 PM): LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:45 PM): LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWL

TOFUU x3 (9:06:51 PM): HEY ANGELA YOURE SO HOT TO TROT

TOFUU x3 (9:06:54 PM): IM SO HARDUP

TOFUU x3 (9:06:57 PM): IM OVERSEXED

Sapph5ireZero (9:06:58 PM): LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWL.

AIM logs.

Reading my AIM logs w/ him.
They're so corny but so very sweet. (:

ro:	today was perfect
us:	stars out
us:	beautiful ights everywhere
us:	the best music someone could ask for
ro:	a beautiful night sky where you could actually see stars
us:	and with the most beautiful girl i could possibly find
ro:	awwwww. <3
us:	yup best day of my life

us:	i love you so much
us:	i cant even tell you how much

us:	how much do you wanna bet i can make you smile again?
ro:	ahahahaha
ro:	but smiling while doing math homework is so awkward
ro:	D:
us:	your not smiling about math homework at least
us:	your smiling because i love you so much

Yeah, love love love. (:

3/12: Best day ever. <3

I read his AIM buddy info and it said:
3/12. best day of my life. ever.
<3

And I gotta agree with him.
March 12th, 2009 was the best day of my life. I love my blazer. <3

Hope Was Here.

"... you've got to love yourself with all your shortcomings, and you've got to love the world, no matter how bad it gets."
-- Hope Was Here by Joan Bauer

"The thing I hate most about dying is how we deny its existence for as long as we can. Nobody knows how long they've got on this earth. And we all need to live our lives just a little bit like the hearse is outside ready to cart us away -- make the days count. That doesn't mean living in fear, but we don't have to be dumb bunnies either and take life for granted."
-- Hope Was Here by Joan Bauer

Yeah. I love these quotes. (:
Quotes like these are what make books so special.

Lalalalove. (:

Kylie's party was pretty cool. (:
CHOCOLATE FOUNTAINS FTW! AND KARAOKE! LOL. Barbie Girl, Beat It, and and WHAT DREAMS ARE MADE OF! I LOVE THAT SONG. =D
Yeah. I just went through a little Hilary Duff phase. LOL.
Man, seeing him in normal clothing was different. I must say, he looks cuter in casual clothing. (:
He didn't seem like he was having a good time, and I felt bad. It was pretty much my fault that he came to begin with. But it was nice hanging out with him on a Saturday. I was singing "What Dreams Are Made Of" to him, but then Louie cut me off 'cause we had to leave, lol. Man ... I never thought I'd like him so much. <3
There's just no one that gets me like you do.
You are my only, my only one. (:
Love, love, love. <3

<3

Today started off alright. I actually enjoy PE 'cause we get to jump rope!
WHAP was eh. Bio was pretty cool. Ditched Spanish (with a pass, of course) to pass out newspapers. Math was alright. She passed out the homework right before class ended, though. I FINISHED MY CRITIQUE IN BAND! And English was pretty funny. I was reading Ivy's Xanga weblog entries out loud to her. Heeeecka funny.
Anyway, there was a swim meet today, right? And well, I wanted to go, but I didn't tell my mom and I was scared to ask. But like; after band, Ireneo asked me if I was going to the swim meet, and I said no, I didn't have a ride. And he offered me a ride, and at first, I said no, 'cause I didn't think I'd be able to. But after calling home, I was able to and I had to call him. He actually came back to pick me up and bought me coldstone! lol, awesome. :D
Man, he was surprised to see me there. I am totally glad I was able to go. It was so worth it, seeing him swim and hanging out with him. I really think he is Andrew Hill's Michael Phelps. Aha, he's a really good swimmer, and of course, an awesome person. (:
And afterward, right before he had to go, he gave me a hug and kissed me on the cheek ... AND IRENEO SAW. LOL. Ireneo's face expression = priceless. It was like; - JAW LITERALLY DROPS -. Donna and Jennifer kept trying to figure out what happened. But yeah. It was so cute and I couldn't stop smiling again.
It was a great day, but then again ...
I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life.
Looooooooove. (:

Dongle.

–noun
a hardware device attached to a computer without which a particular software program will not run: used to prevent unauthorized use.

<3

OMG! OMG! OMG! <33333
So I made a deal with Omar that I'd tell him today. And well, after the district band festival tonight, we were standing under the stars looking at all the pretty lights. I finally managed to say: "I can't waste a perfect night. I like you. I really do. <3" And we boarded the bus, made Chris change seats with me so we could sit together, and we sat down. He looked over at me and said: "I love you. I really, really do." AND THEN HE LEANED OVER AND GAVE ME A KISS ON THE CHEEK. OMG! And I COULD NOT STOP SMILING. EEEEEK. And then, I stopped and Harrison and Paul tried to make me smile and then he leaned over and kissed me on the cheek AGAIN. AHHHHHHHHHHHH! Looooove. <3
Today was perfect. Absolutely perfect.
Well, except that I have math homework to do. Darn. Oh wells.

=D

Long talk about budget cuts in bio today. Man, gotta love that class. Talked about how kids need inspiration and how AP kids and F kids deserve the same amount of attention, but it's really hard to get all of it. Yup, nice long convo about it. Nothing beats long discussions in bio. (:
Today wasn't all that interesting. Although after school kinda was. I was scared to sit in with IB music, so I sat outside. he came out and told me to come in, but I was scared and sat near the doorway. While they were listening, he kept mouthing for me to come over, puppy dog face and everything. Then, when the act ended, he ran over and sat next to me. Then, Ireneo turned around and was like; Where'd _____ go? And Mr. E. was like; "He's over there, reading love operas with Angela. ;D"
LAAAAAAAAAWL. I swear my face got all red. But yeah. I really like him. (:
And from the looks of it, I think he might really like me, too. =]

xDDD

"I DON'T KNOW WHO THE BACHELOR IS, BUT HE'S A LOSER! - L SIGN -"
"THE WAY SHE EXTENDS HER ARMS! IT'S SO GRACEFUL! - Extends Arms -"
LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWL.
Dancing with the Stars is hilarious. :D

My day is made. (=

TORIAASECRET (8:39:16 PM): I LOVE YOU

Sapph5ireZero (8:39:16 PM): Night.

TORIAASECRET (8:39:19 PM): CYRUS DOES TOO

TORIAASECRET (8:39:20 PM): (:

TORIAASECRET (8:39:21 PM): <3

Totally made my day. (:

I like this quote.

Keep this in mind, yeah?

"The past cannot be changed.
The future is yet in your power."
- Hugh White

Yeah. Totally inspirational. Must remember that. But it's true that the things that happen in the past do affect one's future. Mm. Good quote, yeah?

Lalalalazy. D:

Duuuuuuuuuuude. I'M SO LAZY LATELY. D:
Gotta write that book analysis. Srsly. I think I'm done with everything else. But oh my gosh, I think I'm gonna fail those AP tests. AHHHHHHH. I'm so scared. ><
Rawr. OH, and apparently, a lot of people in my Spanish class know about my love life. LOL.
"Oh, you mean that guy that always walks Angela to class?"
They gave me lessons on how to hold a guy's hand. HAHA.
Kylie's birthday is on Thursday! So far, all I have for her is a locker sign and a pack of sour gummy worms. Ahhhhhhhhhhh! Gotta get her mooooore. But Idk what. D:
Hmm... I wish something would happen between me and him. At least I'll get to hang out with him alone on Thursday. I'm so exciiiiiiiited! (=
And maybe he'll want to sit next to me on the bus. ;D
Haha, doubt it. [x
Ah wells, a girl can dream, right? (=

>.>;

I feel horrible. It was MY fault that Nini's sister and cousin found out about the guy she likes and likes her. I'm such a stupid, horrible person. Oh my freakin' gawd. Seriously. How could I be so screwed up?!

I liked today.

Today was a good day. Brian came over and we played Pokemon Diamond on his DS and Club Penguin on the laptop. Went to Kohl's and, after tons and tons of debate, finally got a pair of black Converses. HAHA. "AT LEAST MY SHOES AREN'T CHILDISH AND HAVE FUNNY CHARACTERS ON THE FLAP!" "HEY! AT LEAST MY FLAPS ARE COOL! DON'T MAKE ME MAKE MY CHARACTERS ATTACK YOU!" Lawl, shopping with him is freakin' hilarious. Sigh. I missed him a lot this weekend. Hoped he'd go to AP practice, but he didn't. Ah wells.

Today.

Math AP practice - 9 to 10. AB FRQ's. Fail. Forgot a lot of stuff. Left before we went over the questions.
Chinese School - Midterm. Studied for the first 30 minutes or so. I totally aced the vocab section, but I think I failed the holiday / e-mail section. Siigh, oh wells.
Jack-in-the-Box - Curly fries + chicken sandwiches.
Movies with Caitlin - Her dad picked me up at 1:20 ish, drove us downtown to the California theater. Watched "The Man Who Loved Yngve". Good, good movie. Pretty freakin' funny at points. Aha, the theater is freakin' amaaaaazing. Balcony seating FTW! Afterward, got Starbucks and Johnny Rockets' fries and onion rings. We couldn't figure out how that jukebox worked. I WANTED TO LISTEN TO "MY GIRL". Wandered around downtown for a little while. Pretty awesome. It's really nice downtown. Yup. Fun, fun, fun. (=
Raaaaaaaawr. My mom is really starting to suspect that he is my boyfriend. Sigh. Fail. D:

Inspirational Quotes?

"Alone we can do so little;
together we can do so much."
- Helen Keller

"There's only one way to succeed
in anything and that is
to give everything."
- Vince Lombardi

=D

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy 18th Birthday, Steven! (=

Today was a good day. Even though I fell asleep in English and Ivy actually drew on my face with blue highlighter. LOL. The weirdest things happened after school, though. First, the tennis game was canceled, and Cyrus was walking me to Diep's room and we saw the tennis people coming, and one of the guys on the opposite team was like; HEY! THAT'S CYRUS! And then there was a lot of hugging and all. Amazing how it just so happened to be Mt. Pleasant that we were playing. OH. AND I CRIED AT LUNCH TODAY. Over a math test again. Siiiiiigh. Stupid Angela. OH. And guys fighting over thin mints is hilarious. (:
Yeah. Totally random day, but still totally awesome. (=

Sigh.

Let's face it.
The spring concert wasn't our best.
I felt so bad for Kylie ... She missed her solo out of nerves. >< ;
Man, I felt so jealous when he let Nini lie on his stomach ...
I mean, he asked if I wanted to, and I really feel uncomfortable doing so. =/
Sigh. I don't know why, but that made me kinda sad.
Siiigh.
Oh wells, w/e.
It was nice hanging out w/ him and Ivy after school and going to BK and 7-11.
Fun fun fun.
He was so concerned when he saw me so sad ...
And he stayed after even though his mom was already there. Just to say goodbye to me. (:
I can't believe I was so jealous when he was hanging out with Nini.
Sigh. Ugh, just ... sigh...

There's no one I'd like to stalk but you. (:

"Don't you have anyone else to follow around?"
"No, there's no one I'd like to stalk but you. (:"
Loooooooooooooooooooooooooooove. <3

Maaaaaaaaan, he's freakin' awesome.
And I finally hugged + punched him at the same time. HAHA. (=
Yes, I really do like him. Now to say that to his face. :]

Creepy Stalker Dude.

Oh, btw, there was this creepy guy talking to me online Sunday at like 2 AM who claimed his name was Michael Than and that I knew him since third grade, and he kept saying that he loved me and thought about me 24/7 and everything. I made him and Omar go yell at him and all. I was so scared that I almost cried. Yeah...
And then, today during PE, Nini told me it was Omar. I was so, so mad ... But then, after talking to Omar on AIM after school today, he finally explained why he did it:

althatisprecious (6:56:21 PM): but ya he said i dont desurbe u and that he love u more than anything thing!

althatisprecious (6:56:33 PM): when i was michele long

althatisprecious (6:56:42 PM): than

althatisprecious (6:58:09 PM): no we wanted to find out how much he loved u and if he would cheat on u

althatisprecious (6:58:20 PM): so we did one on u and on him

althatisprecious (6:58:30 PM): and he passed the test

althatisprecious (6:58:33 PM): =)

Now, I feel better. I'm glad my friends are looking out for me, and I'm glad that he passed the test. My friends are awesome. (:

Tittle!

Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawl, I learned a new word today, courtesy of Ivy: tittle!

tit·tle

n. A small diacritic mark, such as an accent, vowel mark, or dot over an i. The tiniest bit; an iota. [Middle English titil, from Medieval Latin titulus, diacritical mark, from Latin, title, superscription.]

Aha, I don't use my tittles. [x
I'm gonna tell Mr. E. and be like; CAN I WRITE THAT ON THE BOARD?
And write:

Tittle, n. An accent, vowel mark, or dot over an i. (And purposely not dot the i in tittle)
^ Oops, I forgot to use my tittle!

HAHA, freakin' awesome, yeah? (:

I am so afraid of failing that that I don't even want to try.

Sometimes, I feel the same way. Sometimes I wonder if the reason why I didn't try out for jazz band was because I didn't want to fail. I think this postcard means quite a lot to me, 'cause in reality, I really don't want to fail at anything I do. I don't want to try out for things in fear of the sadness I'll feel when I don't make it. It's as if I'm trying to protect myself from the feeling of failure, and by doing so, it's preventing me from any progress I could be making. I try to keep trying, but sometimes, that fear of failing stops me. It's as if I'd rather leave things the way they are than try to make them better, in case they become worse. I don't know. I'm so scared of failure and that fear is preventing me from trying, which is ultimately preventing any progress I could be making. I am so afraid of failing so many things that I don't even want to try them.